Mary J. Blige tells The Mirror that her life has often resembled a car crash. “I was an absolute cokehead and an alcoholic,” she admitted. “I was touring and drinking a whole lot and just doing whatever the hell I wanted to do. I was doing men like they do us, using them like whatever you know they use us for. It got to a point where I got an ulcer. But no matter how much physical pain I was in, that didn’t stop me drinking. I went through times when I hated myself and I wanted to kill myself. I almost wasn’t here to tell the story.” That all changed thanks to boyfriend Kendu Isaacs.